What is going on...

I see raindrops falling on my head
as I look up at my ceiling while
I lay in my bed.
Whoa. Wait. Stop rhyming.
I have questions.
Am I losing my mind?
Why am I asking you?
Have you lost your mind?
Probably not.
Can you feel ME?
Or are you too busy feeling
yourself?
Is anything real?
I'm real
real confused.
How long can this go on?
Even the word forever
is only 7 letters long.
And then that ends.
Like the last 3 letters in frie-n-d-s.
WAIT. WHOA. STOP RHYMING.
I was never invited to the party.
So I'm not gonna invite you.
All my friENDS will be there.
But not you
you're gonna be all
alone.
And MiserablE
just like ME.
I wouldn't have it any other way.
Would you?
Whoa. I'm not rhyming. Wait.
I asked you a question?
Do you know the answer?
Can you please repeat the question?

I won't fight it any longer...

So this is the end?
What happened to ME?
I used to have pride.
I used to respect myself.
I used to respect the
s p a c e
that was between us.
But that was just
what I used to do.
That was just who
I used to be.
SoMEone else is here now.
And he's a BEtter person than I can ever BE.
He caME and fought with ME.
His weapon was kindness.
I was fighting but in reality
I was defenseless.
Now although my heart is filled with love.
He continues to attack.
He is relentless.
Now although I want to surrender.
I don't have the strength.
I am hopeless.
His message was siMplE.
It is siMplE.
"Although they don't care about u
U must care about them"
"If they don't slap you
turn the other cheek anyway."
So with my cheek turned.
I go forth. A new man.
Too weak to fight back.

Not yours but ours...

Have you ever rode a tricycle
in the fast lane of the expressway?
Have you ever played Russian roulette
with a fully automatic weapon?
I sense you have.
I sense you know
I have.
Have you
ever looked in the mirror
in search of your reflection
and walked away still searching?
I know you.
Have you
swallowed your pride
and then choked on the the inside?
Repeat after ME.
"Yes I have."
I know I have
felt pain
stood in the rain and went down the drain.
But so have you
so what you felt was not yours alone
it belonged to us
it was ours.