What is going on...

I see raindrops falling on my head
as I look up at my ceiling while
I lay in my bed.
Whoa. Wait. Stop rhyming.
I have questions.
Am I losing my mind?
Why am I asking you?
Have you lost your mind?
Probably not.
Can you feel ME?
Or are you too busy feeling
yourself?
Is anything real?
I'm real
real confused.
How long can this go on?
Even the word forever
is only 7 letters long.
And then that ends.
Like the last 3 letters in frie-n-d-s.
WAIT. WHOA. STOP RHYMING.
I was never invited to the party.
So I'm not gonna invite you.
All my friENDS will be there.
But not you
you're gonna be all
alone.
And MiserablE
just like ME.
I wouldn't have it any other way.
Would you?
Whoa. I'm not rhyming. Wait.
I asked you a question?
Do you know the answer?
Can you please repeat the question?